Missionary life is a hard life I have come to find out. We started this week off pretty strong and then all the sudden it was back to square one again. I find it really humbling to have so many people investigating and then in two to three days you loose them all. But that is life.
Monday was just a normal pday. Tuesday we had appointments all over town and had a very good lesson with a less active man. We visit him once a week just to talk and teach. He is less active because of health not by choice. We had a very spiritual lesson with him. We asked him what was his favorite part of the Gospel. Most of the people we ask that to say the plan of salvation, morals, family history work, temples, or humanitarian aid. But his answer was so simple and beautiful. He said that the best part of the Gospel for him is knowing God. He said we know what he looks like and acts like. We have so much more information about him than any other religion. It made me realize that I take that for granted most of the time. I thought that most people had the same information as Latter Day Saints, but I was wrong.
So why did that response impact me so much? It was because of a few things. I can remember singing in primary "I Am a Child of God". When you look at the Eternal side of that statement it just brings tears to my eyes. No matter what I do I will always be a Child of God. The second thing is how much he cares about us individually. I have been reading the Old Testament and Pearl of Great Price. In Moses 7 it explains it the best. Enoch is commanded to preach to the people. He does and they establish Zion and the Lord takes Zion up to him. But these verses show how much God cares about us.
28 And it came to pass that the God of heaven looked upon the residue of the people, and he wept; and Enoch bore record of it, saying: How is it that the heavens weep, and shed forth their tears as the rain upon the mountains?
29 And Enoch said unto the Lord: How is it that thou canst weep, seeing thou art holy, and from all eternity to all eternity?
30 And were it possible that man could number the particles of the earth, yea, millions of earths like this, it would not be a beginning to the number of thy creations; and thy curtains are stretched out still; and yet thou art there, and thy bosom is there; and also thou art just; thou art merciful and kind forever;
31 And thou hast taken Zion to thine own bosom, from all thy creations, from all eternity to all eternity; and naught but peace, justice, and truth is the habitation of thy throne; and mercy shall go before thy face and have no end; how is it thou canst weep?
32 The Lord said unto Enoch: Behold these thy brethren; they are the workmanship of mine own hands, and I gave unto them their knowledge, in the day I created them; and in the Garden of Eden, gave I unto man his agency;
33 And unto thy brethren have I said, and also given commandment, that they should Love one another, and that they should choose me, their Father; but behold, they are without affection, and they hate their own blood;
34 And the afire of mine indignation is kindled against them; and in my hot displeasure will I send in the floods upon them, for my fierce anger is kindled against them.
35 Behold, I am God; Man of Holiness is my name; Man of Counsel is my name; and Endless and Eternal is my name, also.
36 Wherefore, I can stretch forth mine hands and hold all the creations which I have made; and mine eye can pierce them also, and among all the workmanship of mine hands there has not been so great wickedness as among thy brethren.
37 But behold, their sins shall be upon the heads of their fathers; Satan shall be their father, and misery shall be their doom; and the whole heavens shall weep over them, even all the workmanship of mine hands; wherefore should not the heavens weep, seeing these shall suffer?
38 But behold, these which thine eyes are upon shall perish in the floods; and behold, I will shut them up; a prison have I prepared for them.
39 And that which I have chosen hath plead before my face. Wherefore, he suffereth for their sins; inasmuch as they will repent in the day that my chosen shall return unto me, and until that day they shall be in torment;
40 Wherefore, for this shall the heavens weep, yea, and all the workmanship of mine hands.
41 And it came to pass that the Lord spake unto Enoch, and told Enoch all the doings of the children of men; wherefore Enoch knew, and looked upon their wickedness, and their misery, and wept and stretched forth his arms, and his heart swelled wide as eternity; and his bowels yearned; and all eternity shook.
This week has been one full of spiritual things and lots of hardship. But one thing that I fall back on when I am having a hard time is the fact that God loves me. He knows my strengths and weaknesses and how to help me. I am given trails not to discourage me but to help me learn and find out my earthly and eternal potential. To quote John Lennon," When I find myself in time of trouble" look to Christ and live.
Love, Elder Nielsen